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OKAY. where am i? i am in berkeley california projecting myself into the future through the rocket of the past. here is what my deal is. im listening to wwoz. im finishing up filing my taxes and receiving a very wonderful and friendly surprise from the universe. well, it hasnt ceased...you know, wanting to be in new orleans. it has changed and it is changing all the time and new orleans is changing all the time bet every single ounce of longing, little starlight poking through still sticks.
in all practical manners, here is what i think i am going to do:
immediately i will start taking ec classes online. i will enroll in one now, possibly two if the first one seems easy enough to handle, most probably from bay mills community college online. due to my status of not earning any income, i will receive federal aid to help me pay for my education. i will re livescan, get my official transcripts and apply for an licensed aide permit. i have no idea what this means, but i am going to do it as it will make something easier for me later. in the summer i will take one-two classes from either merritt or laney colleges in oakland. by the start of fall semester, i will only need one more class to have my 15 EC units. This class will be the supervised lab fieldwork that I will pass through working in at the OGS. By December 08 I will have all of my EC credits and I will apply for the site supervisor permit. Okay, so that is Dec 08. January will be 09, that is 10 months from now (AHH! Time Moves So Fast!) I can apply to Master's programs for Fall of 09. Those applications are probably due by Feb 1 of 09. The one at Mill's takes only 15 months to complete for a masters of leadership in early childhood education. i like the sound of that and it is fast. it costs a lot of money but i am completely eligible for all kinds of financial aid. if i start investigating other sources i will find even more money. i can find enough money so that i dont have to pay for barely any of this on my own pocket. If I take a 15 month program starting in fall 09, i will be completed by spring 2010. If I do a two year program, I will be done by either Dec 10 or May 2010. At that point I will have a masters degree in early childhood education and I can do what I WANT to do in the career area of my life which is be professional and be skilled, conscious, trained, educated and thinking about the ways in which I work with children, which being honest, will probably be one of the main ways I make my money for the next five years. (I mean, that gets us to 2013, and who knows after that!?!?)
I am going to save a portion of my money that I can continue to take development classes and plan towards expanding my other interests which are shamanism, weaving, gardening and the outdoors, and travelling.
I will try to budget in my studies at Glimakra studio during this time. I will set up my loom in my house and use it actively. I will keep it dressed as much as possible. I will continue to stay connected to Penland through education in weaving and maybe even donating items to their auctions. At any point during this plan, if I am called and accepted to study at Penland through being a CORE student, I will go. I will also attend a session, be it summer or a concentration or even if it means during a winter residency by the fall of 09.
Also during this time, I will continue to give ninpo a time priority. This is a spiritual practice and I revere it as that. It helps me to have reverence for myself. It helps me to respect others. It keeps me active and on my toes. At the same time, it is strenuous on my body and needs to be counterbalanced by gentle, loving movement. I commit to treating my body in balance and making sure I move in love for my body in all ways. For every demand, I will release.
I will develop my healing abilities.
While im at it, i might as well just kick this eating disorder once and for all and cook for myself like i know how to, love to, and appreciate doing and from which i benefit. oookay!
new orleans, new orleans, always there. i will keep my imagination active. i will return in the next 10 months. i will send my energy there for healing and growth and I will accept its visions, imagery, messages, signals and callings. as it should happen, i will return to live when the time is right.
at my work during this time, i will try to do whatever i can to assist in the positive growth at OGS. when there, i will be present, and try to be as calm, flowing and serene as possible. i will do whatever i can so that my children feel safe, so that they can engage in being children and learn. ooooh man. i will put up psychic shields every morning and harness my energy and power so that nobody subconsciously pulls it from me and so that I dont deplete any children accidentally. i will strive to engage in zero shit-talking. as an alternative i will open myself up to colleagues in a genuine way and try not to create false fronts. i will engage myself in being conscious of breaking down ones that crop up along the way. i will develop my ability to empathize with parents, i will develop my ability to release judgments. i will accept fully my responsibility, i will not be exploited beyond it, i will be upfront about my concerns, i will be active, take action and be professional. i will also have a ton of fun with children.
if work ever becomes unbearable for me I am free to leave my position. Otherwise, I will stay at the OGS until at least Feb 28, 2009. In order to be considered a california resident, I need to live in the state till right around this time. According to the plan, I will have just finished my credentials and will have 12 ece units plus 3 units of field supervision. The applications for masters programs for fall 09 will be due right before this time. The studio assistantship scholarships will be due at the beginning of october during the middle of my field supervision. At this point, i could go to penland the next week for a spring concentration that would be roughly from the beginning week of march till beginning days of may. oh, wow, this happens to be right at the time of jazzfest...hmm, okay, so i could go to new orleans for jazzfest, hang around in my city for a minute, do a little work, soak up sweet sweet sweetness and then i will have one summer before i start my masters. at this point i can work on a farm or a couple, perhaps in hawaii. maybe if i am smart i could research possible schools/jobs in hawaii that could also start in fall 09. or, ANYWHERE IN THE WHOLE WORLD! perhaps i will have developed community here and not want to leave for more than a couple seasons for a few years. it is possible that schools and or work will also dictate the best place to do the next step.
now im getting all dreamy.
okay, that will give me a chance to do penland again and also to be there at another season. it will also give me a chance do farming and to be with the earth and to learn more about earth and the outsides. it is possible that i will also next go the professional route of doing more outdoors practices with children and working in the capacity of a nature setting versus a preschool. the next education step maybe to get more development in the way that will prepare me to work in the national parks, a horticulture therapy capacity, a private or non-profit nature center as the director or chief educator, or in a waldorf school.
In the next nine months, I need to really decide what is the next step of what i want to do, the education i need and where to go to get it and how to pay for it.
in the next nine months, I also need to go somewhere in the world to use a $1350 plane ticket to Vietnam.
Right at this time also, Saturn will be moving into my second house for the next two years.
this is a one year plan with options for the future.
whew.